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11:50 a.m. - 2004-11-13 I've had an idea for a mixed cd that I actually like and I'm hoping you'd be interested in helping me out with it. Starting on December first, I am going to write down one song everyday and it's going to be the song that was stuck in my head during that time. Every day I have a song stuck in my head and that is what my cd will be. It will be the last month of the year and I think that will say something about it. If you're wondering hwo you can help, here's how: get songs stuck in my head. Have any ideas for amazing songs that you think should be on there? Get them into my head. The snow today is perfect. It was the perfect way to wake up. Wheatus singing "teenage dirtbag" through my cd player and the sun reflecting off the snow. It's really the first real snow. Sure, we already had the first real snowfall, but this actually accumulated to something, so it's better. I love when I first let Sampson and Emma out in it because they are such ditzy dogs and they act like they've never seen it before. It's cute because they get so excited. I really feel like walking around today and getting some hot cocoa and well, it would be good if I had a destination in mind, but I never do. Too bad today is already taken, but maybe tonight, because the night shouldn't end at 5. No, never. Not unless it's AM. Edit: I cancelled my plans today. Maybe I will take that walk. When it comes to being jealous, you've got it down to a T. I can see it and the things you say are the only proof I'll ever need. I can't care anymore because I don't want to. Well, obviously i still care because I'm bringing it up, but not to you. If you wnat something done, then change it yourself. I'm not playing these games. We've been here before twice. Yes, twice. Now the tables are turned. Now, it's your turn to speak up. My entries seem so pointless lately, but I don't have it in me to have something really riddled and meaningful every day. Or every week, actually. I just like to write, as terrible at it as I am. It's terrible how just a few months ago, I knew you better then I knew myself. You had this idea about how life would be in 10 years and I kept silent, because who am I to tell you that we probably won't be friends forever? I'd love it if we were, but just look at us now. Last night I hung around with Eninaj, Mas, Einnej, and Aras. I re-recorded Einnej's voice mail. Now, it says "Something witty and death!!" as opposed to the oh-so-popular screaming of her name at with an impressively peppy tone. I liked it. I don't like my voice on machines or phones, or anything. Weekends seem so short lately because I try to make them worth it. They used to be such a nice length, because I didn't do as much. I guess it doesn't matter much, because I'll get used to it, because what other option is there? Everyone is rushing Christmas this year and my only response to them is to sing �Yule shoot your eye out� � cause I've been checking my list one awkward silence Don�t call me when you see the snow and don�t even think of me this Christmas, unless you�re actually thinking of saying something worth it.
If I had any musical talent at all, then I�d write you a song and tell you I wanted your opinion and I�d see what you�d say about it because I would have spent the longest time picking the right notes to go with the right words and maybe it could have meant something, but this simply isn�t possible and it wouldn�t have mattered to anyone anyways.
I hope you�re having a nice weekend.
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