10:59 p.m. - 2005-11-26
Me. 43.
1. I collect snowglobes.
2. "cottage cheese" gives me the heebie jeebies. Even if someone is just mentioning it.
3. I believe in God. But I am not entirely sure that I completely follow my own religion.
4. I want to see Autumn in New York someday.
5. I like a variety of music, but I don't listen to all of it.
6. My feet are constantly freezing.
7. My mother thinks there is something wrong with me, so I have to get my blood tested. I think it's because I don't sleep.
8. I do not sleep.
9. I am not satisfied with my efforts/ I am disappointed in myself.
10. I have no regrets.
11. I tend to view myself as a hypocrite.
12. "The Book of Love" makes me smile.
13. Ever since I was a little girl my grandmother's solution to any problem was to make tea. I find this comforting still. today i have had 4 cups of tea.
14. The number fourteen is my lucky number.
15. Time scares me. I'm always afraid there won't be enough of it and that I am not using it the best way possible.
16. I want a car, but I'm afraid that once I get one, it will be too easy to run away from my problems.
17. I don't understand more than half of my friends. I don't trust more than half of them either. I don't base friendships on trust, but I do base the position of best friends on trust.
18. I do not understand self harm. It has held too big a part in my life despite this.
19. I think growing up is overrated. Wishing your life away only end sit quicker. why not enjoy what we have?
20. A large portion of my life has been spent in waiting rooms, doctor's offices, hospitals, and nursing homes. As a result of this, i plan to be a doctor.
21. A telemarketer from Arizona used to call my house everyday at the same time. His name was Joe and he was very friendly. The day he figured out I was the only one who answered the phone and I would never be old enough to answer his questions, was the day he stopped calling. I sort of miss him.
22. I am constantly afraid that my friends will figure out all of my bad qualities and leave me.
23. I don't have much time for them to do this because I have a very full schedule. I have three jobs. And school. And other responsibilities.
24. I don't remember a time when I was good at sleeping. I have insomnia. Sleeping pills do not work.
25. I love the snow and ice skating.
26. I tend to base real friendships on whether or not they can tell me their problems, not if I can tell them mine.
27. I want a friend who will stay up until 3 in the morning with me, just talking about nothing and watching movies.
28. I am not good at keeping my friends, but I never leave them. they leave me.
30. My favorite books tend to be the ones i read last.
31. I love when people tell me stories. I think I have a special place in my heart for the storytellers of my life.
32. I wish I had known my grandfather because everyone says I am exactly like him.
33. The Little Mermaid is my favorite Disney movie. I don't know why.
34. I wish I tied and untied my shoes. Instead I just slip them on and off.
35. My coping mechanism is laughing. I stole it from my mother. It tends to give people a reason to think I'm crazier than I am.
36. If I could save the world, I would.
37. My favorite number of songs on a mix cd is 19.
38. my sneakers squeak. so does my messenger bag. When i walk down the halls in school alone, it makes me paranoid.
39. I love soccer. I wish I was better at it.
40. I am waiting for a miracle to happen.
41. I love hug sandwiches.
42. I hate being trapped. There's a comfort in leaving, deciding what has to be taken and what doesn't need to be packed.
43. I'm one of the happiest people I know in relation to life in general.
