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7:28 p.m. - 2005-04-26 Tune that piano, write down those few words that happen to come out of nowhere. I want to know what is in that big dumb heart of yours. Big dumb love? I don't want your compliments. They are month old jello molds left out in the sun. So terribly disappointing. You don't care if I leave, do you? Good! I'm gone, toots. This is getting tiring. Idon'twantthisanymore. I'm making friends with trees. They know more about life. They're more intelligent and when I talk, I don't expect a response, so I'm never disappointed. Bugs sing to me on silver lined clouds from which I am typically hanging. Typically. Despicably. Ridiculously. We are the human race and you are losing. So am I. We all are. No one can win in a doomed race. Pinned at your sides are roses, dipped in ink and affecting less. Plastic romanticism, dear. This is your profession. you're so damn professional. Cursing is all the rage. Your style makes me shake on a beach in California. Earthquakes are for the strong at heart and clumsy on their feet. Spaghetti limbs and hungry eyes, feeding for affection. You're not winning this election. the votes are in and you're going down, you're dipped in fantasized emotion. Your ups and downs are idealized and craved for. this is devotion. We're making each other sick, but as long as you're happy, I'll keep smiling. I don't want you in my bad mood. you'll only make it worse. I know nothing about these games besides how to play. The rules aren't there. We're thrown in and people watch as we fight. Thumbs up or thumbs down. they decide your fate. I'm just looking for excuses and maybe you could be mine. Intelligence makes you glow. You're in my car. I'm driving you crazy. Insanity is your cradle on the tallest of the trees. I want you! you want me! bangbangbang. Guns go blasting. You're on fire. hot like ice and cold like your stare after you finally understand. Light and marble finally collide. Rocks are for throwing, not storing in your dreams. your dreams are worth nothing more then pennies, sold at a store on fifth ave. I hate odd numbers. We're not even. I'm winning. you're out of the game. you smiled and lied and cried. your points are gone. I fed them to the fishes.Yes, fishes. not fish. I make my own rules here. shark bait at it's best. your solution is safe and I'm betting i could show you danger in its own territory. You are a danger to yourself. i could ruin lives with a simple comment. i could break you apart and you'd call it a case of jealousy. I don't need to turn green about a notebook. I have my own. What a fucking waste. you're ruining my soil. spoilsportspoilsport. You can't escape what you're made from. you're made from lava from volcanoes too many years old to be explosion. Infertile mothers screaming they wasted the best years of their lives on waiting around for your fucking career. Fucking. Cursing. implying you're a whore gets you double the points as a three pointer shot in a glory game win. You're on your way out. please don't stop being ironic. please don't stop pissing me off please don't take my words for truth. please notice my breathing is faster then your running. you can't keep up anymore. IcanIcan!
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